Many nights I second guess my lifestyle. Especially since I love to be one to settle down. I am probably the worst at being alone. However, once you decide that you are going to leave for a long period of time, like I am going to do, people do not want to get into something serious. I don't blame them...but it's not like a lot of relationships last that long anyways...yet I am stuck alone..just my dreams of travel and I. For this reason, I feel that I am so deep into all of this, that it is travel or nothing. My life, once so clean and determined, feels so free yet such a mess.
Tonight, I am finally downloading pictures of my trip from Ghana. I actually never really get around to downloading many of my pictures from any of my trips usually, but I want to change that. I feel that one of the greatest things about traveling is sharing your experiences with others. Honestly, as I was downloading and looking back at my pictures, I felt a greater closeness with my experiences and the people that I met during my trip to Ghana than I have before. I love what I have seen...Mexico, Central America, Africa, and soon South East Asia....it makes me who I am today.
Not only do I grow as a person when I travel, but I get to see another side of others too. When I was in Ghana, I saw this amazing side of my mom. I have always loved my mom. We are so much alike and that is probably why we had a little falling out when I was younger. I can't even explain how I see her now, how proud of her I am. Our trip to Africa was her first trip out of the country. She's 50 (sorry mom) and she didn't mind the cold showers, the food, the dirt roads, the bugs..she was amazing, young, vibrant, and beautiful. I have never lived in such "harsh" conditions, and while I don't mind it, to have my mom's first time out of the country to be a place that is more impoverished than I have seen, makes me so incredibly proud of her!
So I guess my point of the night/ debacle is that to be a nomad is a lifestyle. It is an amazing opportunity that not everyone gets. I love to see the world...to see how others live so that I can live my life more fulfilled, less naive.However, I lose a lot too. It's a compromise. Right now, I feel that as much as it hurts, the compromise is worth it.
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